I'm sad...

On Sept 11,2009 my Daddy took his life.

I don't know why...

Now I feel like I've never felt before...empty maybe...I can't think of proper word to describe it.

When I think about my Daddy I think of a funny loving man.

He was the man my real father couldn't be.

He was the first person to hold Katelyn when she came from the nursery

He walked me down the beach at my wedding.

He came to my graduation.

He loved me no matter what decisions I made.

I know I shouldnt be sad. He is in a better place. A place where money isnt necessary. Where a job isnt important. The theory I came up with while I was in Maryland was that he had to go to help my Grandma with the baby I lost last year. I guess I came up with a reason because I needed one.

Update 2009

I'm not good at keeping up with this one.

To keep things updated:

I'm still working at Chick-fil-A. LOVE IT! I'm at the mall location. Its GO GO GO all the time. I learn something new everyday. I absolutely LOVE my co-workers and my regulars! It's a good sign when you look forward to the people you see everyday. They are teching me how to cook...I am not a cook. Mike and my grandma have me totally spoiled. I have a fear of getting burnt, so until recently I had NEVER fried chicken.

I miss Knoxville A LOT! I was kinda used to seeing my friends every few days or so...and I didn't have neighbors above me...

Katelyn is doing SUPER great at school. She is an honor roll student :) She has a fiesty attitude (wonder where she got it ??(LOL)). We have been in contact with her birth father. He hasn't changed and thats really sad in a lot of ways. I know what shes going thru and I truly wish I could make things easier for her.

Chelle with the Jelly Belly. The clown of my crew. Everything she says lately is "I never get to ________________." with a pitiful pouty face.
She's 4 going on 14. A drama queen to the core. You cant help yourself but laugh at her. If you didnt you'd probably strangle her. LOL

Trying to make a change for the better.

As of 9/21/08 that will be the end of my 2 weeks notice at Applebee's. I have been with the company for 3 years. I started as a server. I was going to work part time to help bring in more money for our family. After I learned the In's and outs of serving I was trained on carside. Meanwhile learning to host and expo. I even did marketing, art work, and bar tending. Then I was promoted to Key Hourly Manager. I enjoyed managing...even though the staff called me "Little Hitler". I know I was hard on the staff, but the restaurant was clean, I was always somewhere to be found, they knew they could come to me anytime if they needed help. It wasn't always easy. I had to do things Deanna's way which not everyone liked. But she has mentored me well. I appreciate the things I have learned from her and the other managers.

So now I get to start a new chapter at Chick-Fil-A. I keep thinking of all the benefits of working there. Sundays off...No extreme late nights...no serving alcohol. I'm tying to better myself. I want my kids to look back and see that I worked hard and I wouldn't settle for anything but the best for my family. I wouldn't let my girls work at Applebee's. I want to work somewhere I can say, Yes you should work here. With people who have good morals and good values. People who are respectful and want to serve the community...

This past year has easily been the hardest off my life. That quote "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger" has been on my mind a lot. I want to be a strong woman. A good example for my WHOLE family. Not just the kids. I want to serve people in a positive way and maybe I will make a difference to one person.